A Letter to My Younger Self

13 years from now nothing you are doing right now would matter. You probably won’t even remember what you are thinking at the moment. Nevertheless, you will find yourself wondering how did you get to this moment.

Do not be afraid to fail or make mistakes. Take a chance. You will never know until you try. If you fail you can always try again. Don’t let other people limit what you can achieve.

Do not settle for less. Just because your choices are limited does not mean that you have to settle with poor choices. You should think of what makes you truly happy and not force yourself to be happy just to satisfy others. You deserve a lot better.

Do not take shortcuts. Be patient. Trees take years to bear fruits. If someone tells you to take the easy way out, don’t listen to them. If you want a better future then start working towards it as soon as possible. Don’t rely on others to give it to you.

Choose your friends wisely. Not everyone will like you. Not everyone will be there to support you when you are in trouble. Cherish the ones who would. Never forget them and make it a point to reach out to them.

Build meaninful relationships. If things are not working out for you then move on as soon as you can. Don’t dwell on the ugly and expect it to become better. Accept your mistakes and move forward. Don’t your waste time.

Spend more time with your family. Show them that you love them.

Go out of your comfort zone and explore. There are a lot of good places to discover, interesting things to learn and nice people to meet.


When Someone Tells You He’s An Expert

I’ve been in the IT industry for 13 years and even with the amount of experience, I don’t think I have ever called myself an “expert”. So hearing that there’s this self-proclaimed “Linux expert” who is openly insulting our product and our team makes me furious.

Normally, I wouldn’t mind hearing negative things about our product since I consider them as constructive criticisms. But coming from this guy? Who was incapable of the following:

  1. Installing Ubuntu Server (he installed Ubuntu Desktop despite our recommendation)
  2. Installing Apache Tomcat (he tried to install it manually instead of using the package manager and screwed the file system)
  3. Setting up a proper port forwarding (the server is behind a second router and he probably has no idea what he’s trying to do)
  4. Configuring a server to use static IP address (he changed the IP address correctly but forgot to set the DNS servers)

He probably has his reasons for hating us but hey, we’re just doing our job and he can’t even do his.

Millennials will Self-Destruct

Which is worse? An employee suddenly abandoning his duties or the parents of the employee demanding compensation and justifying the negligence of their child?

In this time of so-called “millennials” you have got to wonder who is to be blamed for the continued degradation of our social values. Instead of moving forward, as a society, the signs are clearly pointing towards the path of self-destruction.

Good Bye, Cha Cha

Cha Cha finally crossed the rainbow bridge at 12 noon today. I witnessed her final moments and did my best to comfort her as her heart slowly gives up and she takes her last breath. It was a gut-wrenching experience to see your dog’s final seconds. I’m not even sure if she was listening to what I was saying to her.

I wasn’t able to do anything except rub her neck and tell her I love her and that everything is going to be OK.¬†Somehow, I’m thankful that we decided to bring her home yesterday and I was able to spend time with her until her very last moment.

Thank you Cha Cha for keeping us safe and making our lives less stressful. Thank you for your loyalty and discipline. Until the very end, you followed our house rules, even if your body has already given up. You died in front of our door as if you’re guarding our house one last time. Thank you for being part of our family. Your presence will surely be missed.

I know you are in a better place now, watching over us. I hope we see each other again someday.

The Pain of Not Knowing

There’s no better way to put it. Cha Cha, our 4-year old Belgian Malinois is dying. On the one hand we’re thankful that she can spend her last days with us at home, but on the other hand not knowing when her body would finally give up is just heartbreaking.

We’ve already shelled out over 20K for her medical expenses but it seems that we’re already too late. Money can be earned again but her place¬†in our lives can never be replaced.

As much as we want to exhaust all possible treatment even if it means losing most of our savings, we knew she doesn’t want to be a burden to us. The extensive damage to her kidneys brought about by the heartworm disease is enough for the vet to discourage us from pursuing any further treatment.

We’ve been crying a lot ever since we were told about the prognosis. Psychologists seem to call that “anticipatory grief”. Cha Cha is part of our family. The thought of losing her is difficult to accept. Not knowing when she would be taken from us makes it even harder.

Connected by Fate

While getting a copy of my baptismal certificate, I noticed a familiar name in the church’s log book. It was Glenn’s younger sister, Grace. Her name appeared first on the page while mine was last. It was January 4, 1987. We both got baptized on the same day. Our parents had no idea they will be seeing each other again.

Who would have thought that we would end up going to the same school where:

  • Florence and Gene are classmates
  • Me and Glenn are classmates and best friends
  • Faye and Grace are classmates

And 24 years later, Florence and Gene would get married and our two families would become related by law.